Embrace your Early Drafts, and your Suckosity

Last Sunday was the last day of the San Diego version of the Southern California Writers Conference. I got up bright and early, did the shower thang and got dressed…and noticed that I’d forgotten to rinse the conditioner out of my hair. Good grief. Never done that before. So, I reversed the dressing process and rinsed the *&&% conditioner out of my hair, cursing like a truck driver at my stupidity. I only had two glasses of wine at the banquet the previous night…

I tossed my soaking locks in a towel and got dressed. Again. It wasn’t until I started drying my hair that I noticed that my tank top was on backwards. Good LORD. I took off the sweater and turned the damn tank top around, then put the sweater back on. The locks were finally dried and I now looked like I hadn’t been dressed by a myopic pygmy loaded on sour mash. A quick brush of the pearly whites, and I was off to breakfast. Except I noticed that the toothpaste I’d dumped onto my toothbrush smelled like my face cream. *facepalm*

One could say that I was having a “first draft” morning.

And that’s what first drafts are – it’s the safe place where you make all your mistakes and “Oh hell, what was I thinking?” Obviously I wasn’t thinking at all Sunday morning, and neither should you when you’re writing the first draft of your manuscript.

Your first draft is YOU telling YOURSELF the story.

I see many writers who have an idea brewing in their melons but are scared witless to actually put fingers to keyboard because, as Michael Steven Gregory would put it, they are afraid to suck. You need to lean into your suckosity because our words don’t come directly from the hands of The Great Cosmic Muffin.

I praise any author who has the guts to write their first draft without worrying about their suck factor because they are doing something many talk about, which is, “Oh, you’re writing a book? I’d like to do that.” To that, I’d reply, “Yeah? Well get off your rusty dusty and do it.”

First drafts are the only way you can get from your head to cyber paper and work out the plot kinks and character development. When I’m doing a first draft, I don’t worry about pacing and flow because I know I’ll hit that up once I have a solid foundation in which to build upon. For now, I simply need to barf it out there. It may not make sense, but you’re basically purging your brain of all the teensy details that have been building dust bunnies in the crevices of your brain.

When to Collect Crits

Many writers would rather have their eyelashes plucked with a rusty pair of pliers than allow anyone to see first drafts because they feel it’s too early, too raw. Backing up that notion are some conferences that suggest authors only sign up for advanced readings if they have a finished draft. Fartbaggery, I say. Conference goers pay a pretty penny to attend, and I see no reason why editors and agents can’t offer advice that will help writers gain some perspective from a knowledgeable source.

Many writers are curious as to whether they actually have a solid plot and good characters. As raw as these early drafts are, we are able (or darn well should be) to see the diamond in the rough and advise accordingly. And this is one of the things I adore about the SCWConference. Their goal is to see writers “don’t suck as much as they did when you got here.” That’s a direct quote.

Molten Lava

I can’t tell you how rewarding it is to spend time with my favorite peeps and see their faces glow and eyes light up over an observation I made regarding their writing. Early drafts are molten lava – they are easily changed and reshaped. Once the lava begins to cool, it really does feel like you’re killing your babies when you have to remove brilliant writing or scenes you loved, but have zilch to do with plot movement.

The trick is to treat your early drafts with great respect because they are the launching pad for something brilliant downstream. The problem I see is the writer who fails to recognize early drafts for what they are and, instead, decides to begin the query process or, after crushing rejections, take them to DIY.


Writers who appreciate the validity and importance of early drafts are peeps who will hopefully create a better end-product. As with anything, there are no guarantees. I’ve seen revision 20 on some works, and I knew they’d never see the light of day. The important thing is to have fun and be grateful that you had the guts to take the first step and write a book.

If your sole goal is to be published, you’ll probably spend some time being frustrated. If your goal is to write a story because it’s burning a hole in your lower intestines, then you’re acting instinctively and will be more apt to enjoy the journey. With each story we write, many probably belong under the bed, BUT the learning process is immeasurable.

Always remember that you learn something vital every time you write a new book. Nothing is ever wasted as long as you don’t keep yourself on Writer’s Island and attend a writer’s conference or are a part of a good critique group.

Never forget that your first drafts are your safe place where sucking is encouraged because as you refine and revise, you have nowhere to go but up.

9 Responses to Embrace your Early Drafts, and your Suckosity

  1. authorguy says:

    I have a bit of trouble even understanding the concept of a first draft. I could never even finish the book if the logic didn’t make sense all the way through. I modify my text as I go, which is really easy with any word processing program. So the document I send to my publisher is always the first draft, even though various small bits of that document may have been revised a bit along the way.

  2. Every writer has their method. Some revise and tweak as they go along – like you. But others need to simply get it out on the page so they can see the story with clearer eyes.

    I write out of order, which is completely schizo, but it works for me. When I’m done, I paste the chaps together, which becomes my first draft.

  3. Kim Kircher says:

    Suckosity. I love this word. Thanks for it. Allowing myself to get the first words and ideas on the page without worrying about being brilliant is quite freeing. Now I have a word to describe my method.

  4. This reminded me of a part in “People Are Unappealing,” by Sara Barron. At age eleven, she decided that she was going to write porn. Her first attempts are hilarious. Which is not to suggest that eleven-year-olds should choose that topic and refine their drafts. Barron embraced her suckosity by including that early writing foray in her book.

  5. Personally, I worry for the person who bought you the first glass of wine 🙂

    If he had of known the disaster awaiting you, a different beverage would have been procured 🙂

    Thanks for the information and the laughs 🙂

  6. Did you buy my first glass of wine, or did I? Either way, thar be no way another beverage would have been offered, unless it was a margarita.

  7. Excellent…and love the term suckosity! As someone who over edits when I write, I love the idea of really letting the story go onto the page. Then worrying about the 20 drafts later.

  8. Julie Rowe says:

    I often tell people who ask for writing tips to give themselves permission to write crap for their first draft, because most of us do. One can always make it pretty later. 🙂

  9. […] get it on paper and fix it later” strategy of writing. So is Lynn Price, as she writes here. When my students have to write a short story for school, I’m constantly telling them, […]

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